Today you are 3. Today you are my little boy instead of my baby and that makes me sad. But I swear to God I will always call you my baby forever and ever even when you hate it. Thank you for being my calm in this storm of life. I’m sorry that it was… Continue reading Dear Hudson
Tag: toddlerhood
Wild child don’t you cry
My daughter is everything I hate about me. I know that sounds horrible. I feel horrible writing it, but God it hits me hard. She's stubborn. I'm stubborn. She's OCD and gets stuck- just like me on a bad day. She's cranky as ever- so am I on a bad day. Sometimes she's a bully-… Continue reading Wild child don’t you cry
My Last Summer
This may sound a little morbid, but this summer is hitting me really hard- the last summer of me. The last summer that I don't have to worry about my kids because they are still in daycare. The last summer I can sit on my unicorn float and read 3 books and day drink without… Continue reading My Last Summer
Can you just stay at daycare?
This one is hard for me to write. I had to write it now because a few months from now it will sting too much. We are in the last few months of daycare and most of her friends are already gone. They all started together about 4 years ago. Juliana started there at 9… Continue reading Can you just stay at daycare?
No more guilt
I remember when I had my first baby, I want to spend every second with her. I cried my eyes out for days and hours when I sent her to daycare for the first time. I actually hated everyone at work. I even wore her teething necklace to work. I am very fortunate enough to… Continue reading No more guilt
“I can’t stay a baby, Mama”
I got to play with my kids tonight. I got to spend real time- no husband, no screen time, no running, no multitasking, no phones- yes I took pictures and videos obviously because it's me. I wanted to cry the whole time, not because I was sad but because I was so damn happy and… Continue reading “I can’t stay a baby, Mama”
Feelin all the feels
Not just because Hudson is 2, but everything this week seems extra sensitive for me. I'm in a good place in my life mentally but every so often my emotional bank is robbed and I feel every emotion all at once. I'm sad because my kids are getting older, happy to watch them grow, anxious… Continue reading Feelin all the feels
I’m a better teacher than a mom
I had a meeting today with a family who I feel very connected to. I can't always say that about all of my families but I feel very connected to this one in particular. There's a lot of pushback because of the nature of circumstances, but I feel like they get me and I get… Continue reading I’m a better teacher than a mom
The day we quit dance
I am more upset than I'm supposed to be. I know I can't make my daughter do anything she doesn't want to do, but for some reason I'm super emotional about this. She was doing amazing. She was listening to directions and laughing with her friends. It was so good for her. I don't care… Continue reading The day we quit dance
I haven’t been out in 4 years
Ok ok, I've gone out, but I haven't been overnight anywhere, haven't gone on a vacation- which is totally expected with 2 toddlers, and really haven't gone anywhere for more than 4-5 hours? I'm tired. I need to fill my bucket a little more than once a month, if that. And I don't mean leave… Continue reading I haven’t been out in 4 years
