In a world with so much chaos, social media, social expectations and not enough time, it’s never been more important to be yourself- be in the moment with your children, your friends, your family, your husband/wife. For the love of God I am so damn guilty of it. I am trying to do the next damn thing constantly – let me finish the dishes (hi ocd), I need to do the laundry, let’s scroll Instagram and Facebook and see what everyone is up to and be jealous of all the “perfect” people, let me multitask some more… We all do it. For me especially, I feel like I’m always in a rush and I can’t be in the moment with me kids. All they want is us.
We can all be the fit mom and every other mom, but it’s okay to just stop what we see doing- most of us, especially me, have to train ourselves to stop and just be. It’s okay if I can’t fit a run in. It’s okay if the laundry or dishes don’t get done. It’s also okay if you need to get away and schedule some time for you. I try so hard to explain to my husband that I prioritize myself so I can be the happiest mom for my kids- they deserve happy mom. It’s not because I’m selfish, but men don’t get it.
I vow to be better at this. To put down my stupid phone, unless of course I’m taking 3,000 pictures and videos. I vow to spend more time on the floor with the kids and outside, reading books, playing. They want me- not me on my phone or cleaning the floor or rushing through life. Why do we want to rush through life?!?! I ask myself that every day. I have 2 amazing and beautiful active non stop toddlers that love me unconditionally whether I can run 13 miles or not- they don’t care. They just want me, happy me and touching me. All of me.
They deserve that and I will give them that. I will strive to be a fit mom because that’s what makes me feel good. I’m off every single anxiety medication and have been for several years because of exercise. I am happy when I fill my gas tank from time of time, but I’m so happy playing with my kids instead of worrying about money, what we need at the store, cleaning the milk that just spilled. Our minds tend to be so preoccupied when really the best things in life are right in front of us.
The mess can wait. Embrace the chaos of your children and loved ones. Be in the moment. Be the YOU they deserve.